Still, Jaipur is one of my favorite cities to explore in India, after all, I have completed roaming most of the places in and around the Pink City. And I have encountered many people who showered love and also criticized me to the core with their judgmental stares and demeaning comments. But all I can say is that, this place welcome, queer people and treat them as their guests and look after them well. I got extremely protected and loved by many people in Jaipur since the night I landed till the afternoon I left after three days of my birthday vacation.
Hypocrisy is everywhere and in every human. We all are hypocrites at one or the other point. But in queer culture, the level of hypocrisy is always more when compared to other cultures. Because people think that the rules and regulations are only applied to the queer community to not break the normalcy of society but indeed so-called normal people (heterosexuals) break the basic ethics of society and prove their hypocritical personalities. For example, an androgynous guy like me is not expected to wear clothes that portray both femininity and masculinity, whereas, in the same Indian society, all heterosexual women can opt western wear under the name of modernity. So, if an openly gay guy kisses another male, that is treated as a social demeaning mistake where a man teases a woman in the most degrading way, that is treated as a pure form of Machismo. Well, this is a brief scene in Jaipur.
I was spilling my feminine vibes with my dressing sense, hairstyle, my talks, and my walk and at the same time, I was sporting my stubble and uni-sexual clothes as a man too. I was clear with my perspectives and I was very clear with my orientation. And that attracted most of the men while I was vacationing in the Pink City. Jaipur is a travelers hub. The localite meet thousands of travelers every year who come from various cultures and belongs to various sexual orientation. Hence, the localite of this city welcomes its guests without judging their appearances and identities. The last two blogs under #jaipurjournals were about the loving folk and the judgmental folk of the Pink city. And this blog is all about the clash between these two clans in Jaipur who spill hypocrisy to save their prestigious spaces in society.
Lust is one form of showering love and getting into someone intimately through physical relationships. And strictly speaking who doesn't love sleeping with a traveler from different cultures, especially people who are extremely into sex and making out with random strangers. Unfortunately, I have faced the same situation in Jaipur. People came out clear with their intentions in hanging out with me after they came to know my open personality without even telling them because I was so visibly gay over there in every possible way. I loved the attention though but at some point, it became unbearable.
All my Gay dating and social media profiles were popped up with hundreds of messages, mostly hookup messages and sex proposals with unsavory pictures of dicks of visitors, travelers, locals. Just because I was portraying my open queer personality, people used to flirt with me in my face. I couldn't resist but blush all the time when they used to pass some flirtatious compliments and I could sense what they wanted. I must say, even I flirted with them back to get the complete personality of a person through his words. Trust me the results were amazingly surprising.
75% of people I met in Jaipur were bisexuals and were more interested in effeminate gays. They barely bothered about girls, because all they want to be some adventurous and exciting dates with an openly queer person, but the twist was in a very closeted and personal way. People were ready to do anything for me except stepping out with me and roaming in public. This adorable crowd, I mentioned, was brave enough to flirt with me but not in front of the public. The best example was my tour guide, this guy has been with me all time since he saw me in the station and disguised himself as an auto owner to pick me up and drop to my hotel. After one hour, he took me to a bar and made me enjoy my pre-birthday night at a pub and then he revealed that he was an event manager and guide. Trust me, he roamed all over the places with me and used to pass too many flirtatious compliments and took good care of me.
But hypocritically, he used to behave weird and used to maintain distance in front of others. And he was just an example. Most of the men I met in Jaipur, had expressed their deep sensual and strong sexual desires to me. They wanted to make love with me but they used to freak out if I talked to them so closely in front of the crowd (especially the criticizing crowd). They all wanted to shower love on me in public but they had to resist themselves because of the bashing crowd of Jaipur. I completely understood this hypocrisy and I didn't take it to mind. I appreciated all the efforts they made to impress me to get me personally in their beds to make love but I denied all of them with a smile. I disappointed them. But I had no option left. I wanted them to make a move in front of others but they behaved too formal with me as they were treating a guest but personally in digital spaces they sent me the most sensual and adorable messages.
Of course, I was a traveler. I knew I would leave the place sooner or later but the localite of Jaipur who felt strongly for me, couldn't take the risk to behave romantically or at least close in front of the public and I didn't bother them because I knew at the end of the day, they had to lead their lives in that restricted and rigid society under the rules and regulations of being macho Rajasthani men. Even the pop-ups I got in my digital spaces, conveyed the same message that most of the men got attracted to me and wanted to spend some quality time with me but in their personal spaces not outdoors. Most of them approached me with date proposals in private spaces. I would have gone to explore more but I couldn't because that trip was solely for my birthday vacation with a theme of exploring art and architecture of Jaipur.
But, soon I revisit this beautiful and gorgeous city to explore these hidden souls who are lustful and hypocritical to the core. Because deep down, I could sense their love in the efforts they made to impress me. They made me feel special with their compliments and took utmost care and protected me from judgmental pricks in a very decent way. The only thing I disliked was, how a person who spoke so intimately and romantically in my personal space could behave extremely opposite formally as if escorting a guest. I was surprised to see such a drastic change in a person's behavior. There is a difference between calling someone sweetly with their name and calling them with some titles or with respect. Thanks to all those men in Jaipur, who showered love on me!