Well, it's quite common for me to hangout with married men since my childhood. I won't say that I'm into sugar daddies, but yeah, I was mostly into married men in my late teens. I didn't know the reason behind it. I might have felt secure and safe with them. The love, the care and the affection they have shown me was inexplicable but the restrictions of expressing them were indescribable too. There were days, where the wives of so called married men blasted me for hooking up with their partners. Since then, I have stopped encouraging married men in my life. But they were always sweet to me and I'm always rude to them till date. But why married men show a lot of care for a random guy like me?
The married men in these dating apps were actually bisexuals and gay men who were forced to get married with women. Hence, these married men find these Gay Dating apps as the platform to be themselves with the like minded people.
Here comes the situation, I encountered on the day two of my trip to Hyderabad. Inorbit mall always gives me nostalgic feels whenever I visit. It's been my favorite mall in Hyderabad since my childhood. I was doing my research regarding the queer lifestyle in this metropolitan city. But the city was wholly rigid in giving me some content as the real lifestyle of Hyderabad was totally in these dating apps especially Grindr, the most happening gay dating app.
I have been receiving many messages from many people in all gay dating apps. They were mostly attracted to my naked clicks from my Instagram. It was all about lust and materialistic pleasures. I didn't give a damn to all those messages. I just ignored them, which was a bliss. But I used to reply to the people who were either sweet or interesting. That day in the evening, while I was roaming around the mall and cherishing my old memories, I got a text from a guy in Grindr. I have just reacted for his messages and he said he liked my profile and my words. The conversation was good and he asked me about my plans in the evening. I was grabbing a beer at Smash. Not yet smashed, when he texted me. So I asked him to call me to my publicly available number. He called me up and introduced himself as a Married Man.
Oh! Fuck! I didn't judge him though. But I asked him the reason behind approaching. He didn't say that he wanted to have sex with me or he just wanted a relationship with me. Both scare me though. He just mentioned that he wanted to meet me casually to talk to me or just hang out with him in a movie. I was feeling bored totally spending my whole time in the mall since afternoon. It was the day when one of my recent favorite movies Kalank has released and I'm the person who always loves to watch movies on the first day, especially flicks from Karan Johar! I agreed to the plan and asked him to pick me up from the mall. He said he would be leaving his office at 10 pm and I said that it would be late for a movie at that point of time. But indeed I wanted to watch a movie, late night. I wasn't sure about the plan, though.
Meanwhile, he kept on texting me while I was smashing myself with beers. There was a conflict of plan due to timing issues and I literally got fed up with him. I asked him to drop off the plans and I told rudely that I couldn't be able to meet him. It was in the night 9.30pm and I was still in the mall. I couldn't be able to get any cabs at that time. Some got cancelled because of the location issues. Suddenly, I got a call from the guy who wished to touch my hair when he meets me. That was kind of weird though. I attended his call and he apologized to me for getting confused with the timings. And I didn't want to disappoint him. So, I asked him to meet me at Inorbit mall and insisted him for watching a movie on Inox screens inside the mall. He said, he would reach and decide later as he just wanted to meet me and admire my open mind as most of the people in Hyderabad lacked. I said it was fine. I have waited for some more time and when I was about to order for an another beer, I again got a call from that married man. He asked me to come near the entrance of the mall.