Chapter 5 - Ray of Hope...

God play different kinds of games with Humans. Indeed, human lives are god's favorite game to play. He takes away something important from us and also give another thing which is equally important to what he has taken away. It's always a trade between Humans and Unknown spirit. We lose and we gain, be it things or persons. The same way, Hannah also left alone many times when her best companions left her due to various reasons. But she met someone later, which she knows that she can never lose that person, Tabassum.



In her graduation days, Hannah didn't want to portray herself as a girl, because she knew that she was a Trans man. She started exploring herself and coming out slowly to society to let them understand what she was. Though she was facing hell lot of criticism from family, friends, and neighbors in the society, she never gave up on herself to portray as Trans Man. And she used to continuously inquire about the operations that must be needed to transform herself into a man. She started knowing her biological changes and medical requirements too. While she was facing hurdles in her life regarding her sexual orientation, her sexual urges were also getting increased. She started getting attracted to girls. She was in her teenage and she could sense the hormonal changes in her body. She started feeling to have intimate affairs with girls. That's quite common for any teenage kid.


As it was very difficult to understand such a complicated personality and sexual orientation of Hannah, she couldn't be able to approach girls in reality. She chose virtual social media to approach girls. Her fake Facebook profile with a male celebrity picture was her mode of communication with random girls in India. Like any teenage kid, she has also made few mistakes in revealing her appearance and identity. It was the day, when Indian Diva, Priyanka Chopra has launched her First English television series, Quantico on social media. Hannah, who was the fan of Priyanka Chopra, has looked at the post and mesmerized for Priyanka's Hollywood debut. Hannah, read every comment on the post and found one comment very enticing and appealing to her. It was Tabassum from Delhi, who has commented on her post with her broken English. Hannah tried hard to understand the person behind the comment. Because sometimes broken language can deliver better meaning and the ability to understand it. Her comment was all about women empowerment and how Tabassum always get inspired by Priyanka Chopra's deeds. After reading the comment, Hannah has gone through Tabassum's profile.


Hannah has claimed that she has spent 5 hours of her holiday time in her 2nd-year graduation, to just read, see, understand about the person called Tabassum through her profile pictures and data in her profile. Tabassum was like a girl next door and fun-loving person to Hannah. The next day, Hannah started texting Tabassum. Hannah has mentioned herself as a guy who is in his graduation and from Bangalore. She didn't reveal her appearance and most importantly, her identity to Tabassum. At that particular point of time, Tabassum was heartbroken and deeply molested by a man who was sort of her father figure according to the relations. She stopped trusting men and came to an opinion that men want women for just food and bodily pleasures. Because, she has grown up in such kind of surroundings in Nizamuddin, Delhi. Tabassum didn't take Hannah seriously first. She just treated her as a normal friend from Bangalore. But, slowly she has started sharing her personal stories of her life and that was how Hannah got to know about Tabassum's sexual molestation story. Hannah used to treat Tabassum as her partner and indeed her life partner. Hannah was furious when she heard of the story and sometimes used to feel like ending up the life of Ibrahim, the one who molested Tabassum at her home.


But she couldn't be able to do that, because she was a fake Man in Tabassum's life. The initial conversations have turned into a friendship. The friendly conversations between them have converted to Intimacy. They used to natter every single day, regardless of time. Sometimes, they used to share their sexual fantasies and urges with each other. For Tabassum, Hannah was a man. When Hannah, took a step further and asked about her pictures which reveal her body parts, Tabassum denied sending them, because in the very corner of her heart she had doubts about Hannah's identity. So Tabassum has asked Hannah's pictures in return. There was no option left for Hannah, rather than revealing her appearance.


Fortunately, Hannah has got blasted by her family that day, just because she cut her hair very short like a man. She took a step ahead and sent her picture until the chest part. Because Hannah was still not transformed into a Trans Man. So, whenever, Tabassum used to ask her pictures, Hannah used to send all the pictures that were clicked till her neck so that the picture wouldn't reveal her breasts. And when they used to text intimately on social media, Hannah used to send fake male genital pictures, claiming to be her genital clicks. Tabassum was rebellious, but also very innocent too. That was the reason she got molested by someone very easily where she has mistaken it to love. Tabassum also believed Hannah and never uttered a single word about Hannah's appearance and identity. But, still, Tabassum had doubts about the existence of Hannah as a man.


Deep inside of her heart, Hannah has felt that she was wrong and she felt guilty for cheating Tabassum about her identity as a man. Hannah rushed up to her transformation strategies at home and used to talk to people who already got transformed medically. Because she felt something for Tabassum. Hannah always desired to marry innocent Tabassum. Hannah wanted to reveal her real self after the total transformation of her body into a man's body. Hannah never wished to cheat Tabassum and looked forward to presenting herself as a man who loves her to the core. But, as I have said earlier, God loves to play games with people and fate has something different for Hannah and Tabassum. Something shocking, surprising, instant and sudden.


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